I've had it. I'm over it. I'm done with it.
If only it were done with me.
Since May 26, I've had a constant battle raging with this dysfunction, that for most people doesn't last more than a couple of weeks. I've just been ordered by my doctor to remain home for another month. That puts my new return to work date at September 15. I have not been to work since June 7 (except for a few failed short days that I tried in July).
The first specialist did some testing that confirmed the positional kind of vertigo and stopped there, giving me exercises to do, and saying they should make the dizziness go away. They didn't. He persisted that meds wouldn't help and I persisted that his exercises didn't help. I told him the attempt to work a few hours a day failed miserably. He finally decided to send me to an ear and balance specialist.
The ear and balance specialist ran all the same tests, then ran some that the first guy missed. They were weird. Yaw came with me and watched the monitor as the technician attached goggles to me and covered the lenses. She then blew air into my ears. Cold air on the left, cold are on the right. While the air blew, she asked me to list things alphabetically, like girl names and boys names, etc. Then she did the same thing, using warm air this time.
The test showed that my left ear is functioning at 30% less than my right ear. Yaw noted afterwards that he could tell when I was dizzy because my voice got breathless and my eyes would do this weird wiggly/zigzag thing. I could tell I was dizzy - I didn't need a machine or monitor or even Yaw to tell me that. Why couldn't they just listen to me!?
Anyway, the test proved what they were looking for, so I got a script for meds and more time off from work - because work says they can't give me anything to do that doesn't require a computer. I guess they don't want me following the maintenance guy around and handing him screwdrivers or whatever.
Doc said give the new meds two weeks, which I did. STILL DIZZY. I called his office and said I had two days left until I was supposed to go back to work, and I was still dizzy. A couple of phone calls later, I had a new script called in to the pharmacy and paperwork sent to metlife to extend my time off - until September 15.
While I'm glad I don't have to deal with the stress at the giant company that doesn't care about me, I'm really annoyed, depressed, frustrated, whatever, about being stuck in my apartment AGAIN for another whole month. Blast it all.
The new meds would be awesome if I were suffering from insomnia. I can count on being unconscious for two hours after I take them. Which may be why I'm delaying the dose I was supposed to take an hour ago. Wanted to be functional just a little longer before going back into la-la land. But I can't delay any longer. Too much time typing this has already put me into a spin. Nap-time, here I come.
Look out.
