Human

I'd like to start this day (yes, I know it's noon) by saying that I love my fellow humans - all of them.  And I am thankful for all of them.  Each and every human has a purpose, whether or not it is visible to the rest of us or even to ourselves.  I wanted to start with this statement because it has reminded me that even though I still have a headache, and I continue to face the challenge of finding a place to work as a massage therapist, or start my own business up, I have a whole planet full of beautiful, wonderful, crazy humans who are all going through their own challenges or issues, and we all are one being. Whether by evolution, design, or complete randomness, we are one synergistic being that moves and functions for some purpose that is beyond our comprehension. We live, we die, we hurt, we heal, we help, we abandon, and we are. And I love us. Have a good day, and remember that whoever is front of you is a part of you.  Love yourself. 

Birthday

My birthday was a few days ago, and I spent it quietly enjoying family and looking through the tiny museum here in the county's center. I enjoyed seeing the sun shine brilliantly on the yellowed leaves of trees, seeing how they shined as gold or copper with the sun's help.  They were beautiful.  

Today, I gave myself my birthday present.  In the past this has been something like a new haircut, a new outfit, something like that.  Not this time.  Today I decided my present to myself was to go watch the movie no one wanted to watch with me.  I admit that part of my desire to see it was so that I could have closure for the series of movies it completed. (Twilight - Breaking Dawn Part 2)  

Having watched it, I was very glad I had done it.  The rest of the series was good, even considering the story line is centered around sparkly vampires and teen angst that lasts centuries long.  But the finale piece, the final movie, makes seeing all the movies that lead up to it worth while.  Also necessary, since much of it won't make sense if you don't know the back story. 

Usually I watch a movie and say, that was nice but the books gave me a lot more info.  This one for the most part was the same, but I watched certain scenes and thought, "I don't remember getting nearly this involved during this part of the book." I liked that moment.  I love books, and I always prefer to read a book prior to watching the movie that's based on it.  But that was a nice moment to experience. And it was a good present to myself.  Thank you, me!  

What Would I Change?

What would I change, if I could change one thing about myself?  I'm going shallow here, and surprisingly, it's not about my weight.  While I would appreciate being a more healthy size, it doesn't bother me nearly as much as one other thing:  body hair.  

I have apparently inherited it from both sides of my family tree. Sure, the long, lush eyelashes are wonderful. I hardly need to wear makeup for them to be noticed (but I still do because I do like to flaunt what I have).  But that same gene also seems to control the length (oh god help me) of my nose hair.  Yes, I said it.  I have long, luxurious nose hair in nostrils the size of caverns. I would love to be rid of this, or at the very least, have it stay politely inside its cave like well behaved nose hair does.  

And that's not all.  Whiskers on chin and lip.  I have nanny goat hairs that, even with regular plucking, creep up and surprise me just when I think I'm looking sexy and might actually try to get that cute guy's attention.  Of course, I have the usual hair, too.  Legs, down there.  You know.  But then there's the hobbit foot hair on my toes and the tops of my feet.  What is with that?  I'm a girl. 

If I could change one thing about myself, physically, it would be that I could control where and how all of this hair grows.  I would take all this erroneous hair and shift its location and texture to my head, which thankfully is not thinning, but is also not terribly thick.  It would be awesome to wake up today and say, I want my hair to be six feet long (might be inconvenient since I'm only 5'2", but I could make it braid itself, so no worries). Then tomorrow, I can shrink it back and keep a trim, off the collar look with lots of layers and contours.  And it would naturally stay exactly where I tell it to be, and after being blown by an enticing breeze, would return exactly to its ideal location. 

I would ensure that I have hair only on my head, eyelashes and eyebrows.  Otherwise, I would be smooth as a baby's bottom. 

I will say, however that there are two specific features of the hair on my head that I would leave exactly as they are:  my "stripe", the one stripe of gray just to the right of the other feature - my widow's peak. Those can stay.