I'm not sure where all my friends got the impression that I'm OK with being alone all the time. It's extremely untrue. Especially right now.

I'm not strong right now. I'm not happy right now. I'm not feeling like being alone is a good thing for me right now. And yes, I know that I'm not really alone - I have my niece and her husband and her son, and they do wonderful things to help me. And I appreciate every single bit of it. And there's that whole Universe thing out there.

That's not what I mean. I don't know if I can really express what I mean. I just feel like I've been forgotten by people who used to be such a big part of my life. I don't expect everyone in my world to put me at the top of their list - I don't even expect my closest friend to put me at the top of her list - or anywhere on it if they don't want to. But I would think that someone who used to say I was like a sister would make a little effort when it's clear that I really want some face time before that option is gone. So maybe I'm not so much like a sister anymore.

Just so everyone knows, I am not the loner people seem to think I am. I love people and I need my friends to remember me, even if they can't get out to see me. Just a few words. "Hey, I'm thinking about you." They mean so much.